October 23rd, 2007
I’ve always adored sleeping. It once was one of my favourite things to do. If I was bored, lonely, sad, etc. I would go for a nap. I would turn on my favourite tunes and lay with my eyes closed until I drifted off. It was once so peaceful and relaxing.
But that’s all changed.
When Carter was born I was blessed with a fantastic sleeper. After the first three months. The first three months were torture. He would be awake all night, I would be crying and so angry because all I could think about was going to bed. It didn’t ever dawn on me that I would have the opportunity to sleep during the day while he napped since I was home. Everyday.
At 3am, sitting up with a crying baby, it never once dawned on me that Hey! I don’t have to get up in 2 hours to go to work, RELAX! All I could think about was the fact that I wanted to be in my warm bed. Dreaming of pleasantries, like bunnies, and rainbows and sunny skies!
Once Carter began to sleep through the night (at SIX MONTHS, yo!) I was once again reunited with sleep filled nights and restful mornings, except for random noises in the monitor that would randomly jolt me back to consciousness.
I began to curse him for being the perfect child (I know! I know! Bad Mom.) because you can only have one of those. I think it’s written somewhere. Like the Bible or something.
Even my pregnancy with him was completely text book - well, all the good stuff in the textbook. No morning sickness, only mild fatigue; everything was hunky dory.
I would read through the descriptions of morning sickness, sciatica, fatigue, pains, etc. And think to myself. Fuck! That would suck SO bad!
Joke’s on me.
I have all that. And more this time.
I tell you, it’s Devil Spawn this time people. Pure evil.
Even though I have been sleeping a minimum of 10 hours a night I am cursed with evil and horrific dreams. Vampires, domestic disputes, stabbings, guns, such violent images that have got me talking in my sleep!
It’s been unreal. Eerily and creepily real dreams. The ones where you scream and no sound comes out, or you’re shaking something off you, but not moving!
I really dread falling asleep sometimes. Like last night’s dream of running from a man (not sure who) that had a serrated knife and wanted to kill me. Running dreams: where you can’t run fast enough and always seem to be in slow motion. Run! Dammit! Run!!
Maybe it’s the peanut butter before bed. I dunno, but something is truly messed up.
“Can’t Sleep, Clown Will Eat Me!” comes to mind.
Sorry to hear that! There seem to be a lot of pregnant/sick bloggers at the moment. Hoping you feel better and get more restful sleep. I’ve heard the dreams are weird - not looking forward to that!!
There’s a of us isn’t there! And we all feel the same. It’s creepy!!
October 23rd, 2007 at 11:29 am
oh my gosh. you poor thing… When I saw your post title on my google page I wanted to reach out to you and say that Clowns terrify me too. I felt a kindredness… And then I read your post.
It appears that I can’t relate after all… Shucks, though not in a “man! Why does she get all of the horrible dreams???” way… more in a “wow. that does suck and I hope you find some real peace and rest really really soon!”
maybe inquire about some natural, prenatally safe herb or tea you can use before bed… it’s worth a shot…
I’d rather be afraid of clowns right now.
October 23rd, 2007 at 11:48 am
They say the second one is completely different. I wouldn’t know, but that’s what they say.
Who the hell are ‘they’ anyway?
Always with the words of wisdom!
You kill me. (Please don’t! I’m already afraid to sleep at night.)
October 23rd, 2007 at 12:36 pm
sometimes i dream that i’m in world war II. i swear to god. insane.
Really? War? That’s one I haven’t had yet. LOL
October 23rd, 2007 at 12:48 pm
My problem with sleeping is that once I “start” to wakeup in the mornings, I can’t go back to sleep. I think everyone kinda wakes up once or twice before they wake up for good - but I can’t go back to sleep once I wake up that first time. It kills me!
Once your brain starts going it’s impossible to get it to stop. You’re a busy girl though, and FAR less lazy then I!
You’re battling through being tired and cranky and even barfing for a day, yet no complaints while I’m whining about everything! LOL
October 23rd, 2007 at 1:10 pm
Oh honey…..*hug*, I went thru that too!!! It was scary, those WEIRD WEIRD nightmares! It’s all those hormones playing tricks on you. I puked for 5 mths and that’s why I’m not yet pregnant with #2.
If I had this the first time around, I wouldn’t be pregnant again, I can say that for certain! LOL
October 23rd, 2007 at 1:27 pm
Me too with the nightmares. It got so bad that I almost pulled out the baby monitor so I could call mike up if he wasn’t in bed yet.
BRUTAL.
I finally went to the doctor because I was terrified - like I’d wake up in the morning and be afraid to go downstairs. She said it’s just hormones. Weird.
And, I agree with the whole thing. First pregnancy a charm. This one - killer.
Really? Baby monitor? K, I’m not that scared yet. But I have resorted to talking in my sleep. I think I woke myself a little last night calling for Mommy.
October 23rd, 2007 at 4:28 pm
My second pregnancy was the hell one too. I didn’t have the scary dreams, but I would constantly have dreams that I gave birth to puppies or a dolphin with horns, or something. Ok, those were a little freaky.
It’s hard to think of a name for a horned dolphin.
Horned dolphin? You’re seriously F’d.
hahahahaha
I haven’t given birth to anything. Yet. But thanks for that. I probably will tonight now.
October 23rd, 2007 at 4:52 pm
Yup. Hormones. Not only are the dreams weird, but very, very vivid. Right?
Are you taking prenatal vitamins?
Try this. Before you fall asleep at night, lay there in bed and think about all the things that slipped into your subconscious for the day. For example, let’s say you notice a worm on the sidewalk. Or that you just glanced at it but never gave it a single, nanosecond of thought. Before you go to sleep, think about what a cute worm it was and bring it forward to the conscious mind. BAM! Possible nightmare about worms replacing every strand of hair on your head GONE FOR GOOD. (oops, I hope I don’t cause your next nightmare - but I’m trying to make a point … although somewhat lame)
Well, that’s what I did. Gave myself 15 minutes to replay (in a fast-forward speed) the things that I let slip into my subconscious and low and behold, nightmares were gone.
Also, you could upload some new age, brain relaxation music and listen to that before you go to sleep.
The more you stress about the nightmares, the more you’ll have. It’s kinda like panic attacks. Once you have a panic attack you worry (not you specifically, I’m speaking generically here) so much about when the NEXT panic attack will come, you’ll (generic) cause it to happen and it’s always worse the second time around!
I rambling. It’s what I do. Hugs.
Happy Place. Go to my Happy Place, right?
Yeah, I take prenatals. You think they have something to do with the dreams?
October 23rd, 2007 at 7:52 pm
My first pregnancy I was so sick. This one seems to be better, but I’m still having weird dreams. A couple of weeks ago I dreamed I was sprayed by a skunk.
Good Luck with the sleeping….
Jenn
You’re pregnant too!! Congratulations!!
Sprayed by a skunk? I’ll take that over have my face melted off on a hot plate. *shudder*
October 23rd, 2007 at 10:17 pm
Blasted hormones. They got me, too, except they got me both times. Here’s to hoping that the crazy dreams go away.
Yeah, stupid hormones. Damn the hormones!!
October 23rd, 2007 at 10:47 pm
I’m sorry hon!! I was fortunate with both pregnancies….didn’t have nightmares or horrible experiences with either one (outside the norm anyway). The second one for me wasn’t that bad…and for comparison on sleeping….my first one slept through the night at 6 months, this one is 8 months and *sometimes* sleeps through the night. But he’s a better napper.
Hang in there hon. (((hugs))) I hope the nightmares subside soon. Those can be so awful.
Thanks Brenda, I hope they do too!!
October 24th, 2007 at 8:56 am
Maybe you should rethink the peanut butter.
October 24th, 2007 at 5:31 pm
Sometimes - yes, it is what you eat before you go to bed at night. Chocolate will give me and my kids bad dreams. But also - take a good long look DEEP into your subconscience and figure out what’s bothering you in life, and what emotions those things make you feel…surely you wil be able to relate that emotion to the emotion you fell in your dream - no matter what crazy stuff is happening.
Bad dreams are just the subconscience trying to work itself out. Listen to those dreams.
Um.. all my bad dreams have been about murder? What does that say? *Eeeek!*
October 27th, 2007 at 10:15 pm