November 13th, 2007
Yesterday the hormones raged and I played right into their weepy guilt ridden ways with my apologies for being able to conceive while just thinking about it, and the fact that I have many friends who aren’t so lucky. Moosher called me on it today wrote another post about how fabulous *cough, cough* her pregnancy was, and mentioned Megan’s fabulous post about Hierarchy of Suffering, and rather then me hacking up Megan’s excellent post, you should go read it yourself because it’s really fantastic.
And guess what, after Casey tells me how bad I shouldn’t feel and I should share my barf stories: I feel bad about apologizing for something that is out of my control. Yes, the complaining is out of my control, it’s part of my genetic make up. Blame my parents.
Blame my parents and the out of control HORMONES.
See, I loath throw up - mine or anyone else’s. As I’ve mentioned time and time again (Forgive me, I’m not linking) about how I’d rather suffer the wrath of explosive diarrhea then vomit. Well, I haven’t been so lucky. In the past two months, I think I’ve been barfing like a supermodel what feels like non-stop and it’s slowly killing me. I cry each and every time and also pee my pants. Not to mention the fact that I am forced to put on this facade of feeling fantastic while I’m at work because my pregnancy is yet to be announced to co-workers. That’s a feat in itself.
So yes, I can and probably still will write about how horrible I feel and how different this pregnancy is then it was with Carter and how much I HATE throw up.
It doesn’t change the fact that I wholeheartedly feel for those who have a more difficult time with conceiving.
I totally understand this.
I’m feeling the same way. I’m grateful to be pregnant. And, when I throw up (and pee my pj’s) most mornings, still, in the back of my mind I keep thinking that this means the baby is growing.
But it sucks.
And it has nothing, absolutely nothing, to do with the people who are having problems conceiving. I feel horrible for those people and my heart goes out to them. But in the moment, when you’re puking, it’s awful.
And, you can say that on your blog.
And, putting on the “I’m great, life’s great, I’m a glowing happy person” facade at work also sucks.
November 13th, 2007 at 11:33 am
With my 1st, I puked once a day every day for 3 months. With my 2nd I was sick one day, Thanksgiving Day!! With my 3rd, I thought I had a stomach virus for 2 months. The smell of food made me vomit and it was all day long!!!
November 13th, 2007 at 1:31 pm
I’m with you on the vomit. I also would much rather have it come out explosively from the other end. I’d rather have an aching belly than a sick tummy any day. Not that I would want either, I’m just sayin’. I hope this passes for you soon. When are you planning on announcing to your coworkers?
November 13th, 2007 at 2:44 pm
I would rather crap firewater than puke any day.
AMEN Sista!
November 13th, 2007 at 3:21 pm
oh, i completely agree with you. i would clean up 10 million nasty poopy diapers rather than deal with anyone’s puke, even mine!
hubby and i were just talking about my morning sickness last night, because a friend of ours just revealed that she’s pregnant. i had
morningall-day sickness for the first 6 months of my first pregnancy, and the first 7 months of my second. i puked. i puked and i puked and i puked. it got to the point where, after eating a meal, hubby would look at me to figure out if it was going to stay down. then i would give him a polite smille, and run like a mad woman to the bathroom. nasty!hope yours passes soon!
November 13th, 2007 at 5:18 pm
I just commented on the moosh that I recently had food poisoning and it reminded me of why I must always remain a mother to two and no more.
With my second baby and all the morning sickness that came with him, I too cried every time and peed my pants. With this bout of food poisoning, I thought to myself, while squatting, puking, and peeing on the floor, “No way in hell I can have another baby. I’ll never make it.”
Is crapping firewater a choice, by the way? Where do I sign up for that, just in case?
November 13th, 2007 at 7:51 pm
I hateto scare you- but I vomited so many times during my pregnancies that I am kind of immune to it now. Not that I like it- but I can barf and jump right back up and go on my merry way. That’s what puking roughly 1440 times in six months will do to you.
November 13th, 2007 at 10:44 pm
Oh my! Haven’t told work yet? That should make for an interesting post LOL
Maybe this baby is a girl since the pregnancy is so different:-)
November 14th, 2007 at 7:16 pm
Blah blah, pregnancy is such a blessing and it’s so wonderful and blah blah blah.
Suck it and wipe up my vomit positive people.
Hugs and kisses.
-the not pregnant one who’s really (honestly) happy for your sickly little self.
November 14th, 2007 at 8:38 pm