I am cold, super tired and my brain is mush.

Yesterday we sat in our cramped boardroom for 9.5 hours working on our company’s Strategic Planning for the coming year. We do this every year over a two day period giving every employee (all 12 of us) the opportunity to share our grievances and what we’d like to see happen throughout the next calendar year. It’s truly a great session, but so painful sitting there for 2 solid days (a Friday and Saturday no less) going through this past year’s financials, goals, achievements, and THEN the changes that we’d like to see in place for the upcoming.

This year we crammed it all into one Thursday.

I think my brain oozed out of my left ear at one point.

I have no ability to put together a coherent sentence or carry on a conversation. I am just completely bushed, overwhelmed and groggy.

After our session, we had a group dinner. I made it through without barfing - since my biggest fear all day was: How the Hell am I Going to Eat Dinner with all These People I Work with and Keep it Down?!

I didn’t get home until 10:30pm and I’m back at my desk, bright and early at 7:30 (that is of course if the boss is reading this…for everyone else, I was here about a half hour later).

I am seriously contemplating dropping out of NaBloPoMo. I just don’t know if I have it in me anymore; I’ve made it half way through and feel like quitting now. I feel forced to write and panicked if I don’t have time. It’s not entirely enjoyable for me at this point.

Could be the fact that I am about ready to pass out right now at this here desk.

I feel Hormonal and CrazyBitch-like today as well, surely to be blamed on the lack of sleep.

I’ve received a couple of rewards and been tagged for some memes, which I’m going to use to my advantage this weekend.

I am soooooo stinkin’ far behind on designs I really wouldn’t be surprised if clients began asking for their money back. I’m really trying Client People. I do love you, and I haven’t forgotten about you!!

UPDATE: I’ve decided to go on hiatus from designing until the New Year. The clients that I am currently working with WILL have new designs ASAP, but as for new stuff, I just don’t have it in me at the moment and it’s not fair to expect that people are OK with these huge delays I’ve been encountering with designs over the past month three months. It brings tears to my eyes because I never wanted to do this, but I just have to let some things go at the moment.

See, HORMONAL!

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