January 17th, 2008
When there is stuff going on in one’s life it’s not always easy to talk about it, and talking about it on an open forum - such as a blog like this one - is just impossible. You know, stuff that’s just eating at oneself, yet one cannot openly express their feelings.
Having an outlet available and not being able to use it is comparable to torture sometimes.
I have an issue at the moment that I just can’t seem to discuss. It’s been causing high anxiety, stress, and fear. I worry about mundane things often and this mundane thing has manifested into a full blown issue causing rifts between my family, my husband and myself. Something that has been avoided for a long while and its taken on a life of its own. I think about it constantly and worry about the outcome, though, I feel like I’m the only one which makes me feel worse.
I hate to be so vague; I feel guilty for writing cryptically. But I have to talk about not talking about it in a way that I can still talk about it, but not. Get it?
I feel caught in the middle of something that no one will talk about. Including me. It’s brought up and then quickly dismissed; it’s haunting - like that huge 9000 pound elephant sitting in the corner of the room that no one wants to admit they see, just hoping that it will find its own way out. That elephant is holding a lot of animosity and frankly, it’s getting pissed that no one wants to acknowledge its presence.
Just had to get that out.
I know how you feel, only my elephant’s rabid.
Angie’s last blog post..The Simple Things
January 17th, 2008 at 6:34 pm
I feel that way a lot. I shower it with Mt. Dew…sugar highs help me.
sir jorge’s last blog post..Decline of Video Game Interest
January 17th, 2008 at 6:43 pm
I’m sorry. I had issues over Christmas and blogged some of it…but it sucks not to be able to get it all out.
Smile girly! I looked over and saw like 20,300 something readers on your feedburner!!! OMG!!!
(not that I understand what all that stuff is or does - but that is a big #)
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January 17th, 2008 at 6:54 pm
Sorry you’re having a hard time
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January 17th, 2008 at 7:27 pm
I hate moments liket his, and I sure hope they get better for you. If you ever want to chat about it on here, let it out. We’re all here to listen… ((((HUGS))))
January 17th, 2008 at 7:59 pm
Oh sweetie - it saddens me that you’re hurting. I hope there is someone you can talk to outside of the situation. I’m here if you ever need a shoulder to lean on, okay?
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January 17th, 2008 at 8:45 pm
I’ve been thinking about you lately; I sensed that something was bothering you. I’m sorry you’re feeling this way and I hope that, somehow, whatever it is you’re dealing with can be worked through quickly. xo
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January 17th, 2008 at 9:06 pm
i think this is the first time to visit here….I linked to you from someone on my bloglines…
anyway, so sorry you can’t vent. I do hope things work out and soon.
the picture is awesome!
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January 17th, 2008 at 11:27 pm
I hope everything works out. Soon. . . .maybe the elephant needs a nice trip to the zoo or something.
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January 18th, 2008 at 12:08 am
hang in there ..
and dude 20 thousand readers?
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January 18th, 2008 at 12:17 am
I know what you mean. Sometimes my mother is driving me crazy and all I want to do is bitch about it on the blog, but I can’t becuase she reads it…grrrr. It’s hard not to have an outlet.
Jenn
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January 18th, 2008 at 12:47 am
that’s why public blogging sucks so much sometimes…you just can’t say the things you need do. {hugs}
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January 18th, 2008 at 9:32 am
I can definitely relate! I once made a password-protected post about something in particular that bothered me. Only two people asked for the password (and I am assuming those two people read it), but I felt so guilty after posting/sharing, even though I HAD to get it out.
I do hope whatever it is works itself out.
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January 18th, 2008 at 10:32 am
Hope everything works out. I know how you feel, we have our own elephant in the corner too. I could post about it, no family or friends know of the blog, but it is almost too personal to put out there. Good Luck.
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January 18th, 2008 at 11:03 am
Elephants in the corner suck.
I’m here for you anytime chickie.
J.’s last blog post..Much ToDo About Absolutely Nothing
January 18th, 2008 at 2:17 pm
I know what you mean. I had something bugging me to I wanted to share but wasent sure if I should. I did share it thou, I felt better. It helped me get my thoughts off my chest. I only shared because I know no one where I live would be reading it. If thats the same case for you, you might want to share.
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January 18th, 2008 at 2:19 pm
I’m sorry hon. I’d be there for you if I could. ((((hugs)))) I’m praying for you.
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January 19th, 2008 at 10:34 am