January 25th, 2008
Sick again. Still, actually. Wednesday I came down with something, unable to even keep water down, I’ve slept through 28 of the past 48 hours. Thank God for daycare and Mike otherwise I think Carter would have been been locked in a closet. I’ve been stricken with the sick bug practically this entire pregnancy. I don’t know if it’s just that my immune system is compromised or I’m just a gluten for punishment. I’m really over it though. I don’t wanna be sick anymore. *pout*
Since Tuesday evening I’ve also been in a little more of a funk after hearing of the passing of Heath Ledger. I can’t even explain why I’ve been so profoundly impacted by this loss. Sure, I was a fan of his movies, I thought he was cute, but there was nothing really beyond that. Yet, I find myself sobbing at every photo I see. Deliriously upset by the fact that Matilda has been left without a father and the entertainment world has lost a shining star.
I have no connection or affiliation, yet I seem to be overwhelmingly depressed by this loss. It’s difficult to describe without sounding like a complete psychopathic stalker, so I’ll just blame it on the hormones.
I think death in Young Hollywood affects me so greatly since I’m completely and utterly hormonal in the same age category as many of these stars. Britney and her meltdown, Lindsay Lohan and rehab, Brad Renfro’s overdose, and Heath. They have a different lifestyle, financial freedom and new found independence to accompany that wealth, unlike many of us their age, yet, for some reason it’s difficult not to find oneself comparing one to them. Once you take away the wealth and fame; they are the same. People trying to make a living and provide for themselves and loved ones.
The thought of Carter losing his father so tragically, so young, takes my breath away. I can’t even fathom the idea of him not have a memory of his father, or having to explain where daddy went and why he’s not coming back. In that sense, Heath’s passing has made it so much more emotional. There is a child involved. A child so dearly loved and cherished by a man that she, more then likely, will not remember; aside from what people tell her of him. My heart breaks for that young girl and her mother. Not to mention the rest of his family who never had the chance to say goodbye.
I just hope he went peacefully.
It is a sad story. But hormones maybe playing a big part in your overwhelming depression. Every time I was pregnant, I would get SO upset over even small things. He was a good looking man and a good actor and he will be missed by many.
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January 25th, 2008 at 1:10 pm
Yes, his passing is very sad. Very tragic and probably unneccessary.
I understand about it affecting you. The loss of Michael Hutchence from INXS greatly affected me.
Hope you feel better soon. We too, are bitten by the flu bug. ick.
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January 25th, 2008 at 1:12 pm
Sorry you’ve been so sick — being sick when you’re pregnant is totally unfair. I have been really sick this week too and it’s just so draining. Get better soon.
It’s very sad about Heath, and although it doesn’t sound like a suicide or anything like that, it makes me wonder what the heck is going on with young stars. You know?
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January 25th, 2008 at 1:53 pm
I’ve felt the same way about Heath Ledger. Maybe it’s because I’m pregnant, too. I don’t know. But, when I think of his daughter, it just makes me so sad.
Glad to hear you’re feeling better. I hope the bug is gone for good.
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January 25th, 2008 at 2:30 pm
I hope you start to feel better soon. Being preggers and sick is the worst torture I can think of.
I had a tough time with this death as well. Perhaps because of my Bug. I don’t know why.
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January 25th, 2008 at 2:46 pm
i’ve had a really hard time dealing with this one too…so tragic.
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January 25th, 2008 at 4:40 pm
I hope you get feeling better!
January 26th, 2008 at 1:44 am
It was all I could do not to bawl like a baby when I heard of his passing. He seemed like a real rarity in the entertaiment industry…like a really nice, down-to-earth human being. And as an actor, I think he was one of our best and had the potential to be one of the greatest of our time. I’ve always been a huge fan, and had no idea his death affected so many others the way it did me.
Hope you feel better soon!
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January 26th, 2008 at 3:34 am
Feel better soon!!
I am just so drawn in to all this Britney hype and now over Ledger’s death…all the coverage (online & tv)…it’s wild.
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January 26th, 2008 at 4:30 pm
Hope you are feeling better soon!!
January 26th, 2008 at 6:22 pm
Feel better soon.
After becoming a parent, I worry about my premature death in a way I never though I ever would. (I knew I would be concerned about it once I had kids, but the actual feeling is so different than I expected.)
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January 31st, 2008 at 9:21 pm