I have always been a little self conscious. I’ve always thought about myself as the less attractive, fatter, friend. I’ve never been the one to get many stares from guys, I’ve never really been hit on nor had the offer of a stranger to buy me a drink at the bar. I was usually the odd one out that never got asked to dance. Tell you the truth I can’t even remember the last time some guy’s honked the horn at me as I passed
and it wasn’t a dirty old man or construction worker.
I don’t know if I put out the persona of being high and mighty, unapproachable or just look bitchy. I’ve never felt that I am better then anyone else, nor have I tried to pretend I was. I am just average.
Throughout the years I’ve become a little more comfortable with who I am. I’ve tried to think less about what people think of me and more about what I think of myself. Sure, I have moments where I say to myself: I wish I looked as good as her. If only I could just lose weight then I’d be prettier. I’ll never be able to look that good. Doesn’t every woman go through a period like that?
But you know what? I am who I am.
I have some of the greatest, most supportive friends in the world. I have a beautiful little boy and another child on the way. I have a loving husband and a great family. Everything that really counts.
I may never be a super model. I may never be picked out of a crowd of women as the ‘hottest one’ and I may never get that free drink bought for me at the bar.
I’m okay with that.
This is who I am.
Note the blank stare – I have no contacts in or glasses so I’m blind as a bat. This is the best shot I got. LOL
My Self-Portrait of Truthiness can be can be seen as a part of the Flickr group as well as these fantastic ladies:
Sweetney – the mastermind behind the whole thing
Anyone can participate so DO IT!