March 20th, 2008
I have always been a little self conscious. I’ve always thought about myself as the less attractive, fatter, friend. I’ve never been the one to get many stares from guys, I’ve never really been hit on nor had the offer of a stranger to buy me a drink at the bar. I was usually the odd one out that never got asked to dance. Tell you the truth I can’t even remember the last time some guy’s honked the horn at me as I passed and it wasn’t a dirty old man or construction worker.
I don’t know if I put out the persona of being high and mighty, unapproachable or just look bitchy. I’ve never felt that I am better then anyone else, nor have I tried to pretend I was. I am just average.
Throughout the years I’ve become a little more comfortable with who I am. I’ve tried to think less about what people think of me and more about what I think of myself. Sure, I have moments where I say to myself: I wish I looked as good as her. If only I could just lose weight then I’d be prettier. I’ll never be able to look that good. Doesn’t every woman go through a period like that?
But you know what? I am who I am.
I have some of the greatest, most supportive friends in the world. I have a beautiful little boy and another child on the way. I have a loving husband and a great family. Everything that really counts.
I may never be a super model. I may never be picked out of a crowd of women as the ‘hottest one’ and I may never get that free drink bought for me at the bar.
I’m okay with that.
This is who I am.
Note the blank stare - I have no contacts in or glasses so I’m blind as a bat. This is the best shot I got. LOL
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Dawn says:
Right on
And that hair is awesome
I’m blind as a bat too!
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March 20th, 2008 at 9:47 am
samarama ding dong says:
Dawn: Yay, I totally look like I’m rockin’ an 80’s mullet. LOL
March 20th, 2008 at 9:57 am
Mornin' says:
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March 20th, 2008 at 10:33 am
Karen Sugarpants says:
Your hair looks sawft. And you’re totally pretty so shuddap. I finally did it too. Gah. Scary.
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March 20th, 2008 at 10:37 am
Jen says:
I kind of have to object with your first paragraph…
you may have forgotten your college years where there were many men after you….and…um….remember “sex leg”?
I ALWAYS thought of you as the prettier chick in the group. Everyone could talk to you, mainly because you are always so honest (sure..brutally honest works too!)
You are a beautiful person in and out. I would never consider you the “fat” one…heck…we all have a bit of a muffin top…don’t we??? I know I do.
I love you for you and it will always be that way…whether you gain 40 lbs, have goiters all over or even if you’re a bitch…I will love you just the same.
MUWAH!
Your Friend!
March 20th, 2008 at 10:51 am
Natalie says:
You are beautiful! You know, confidence does wonders for the outer image too! I am in such an uncomfortable physical place right now, but I’m trying my hardest to see me as others do. I’ve found that others judge me MUCH less than I judge myself.
March 20th, 2008 at 11:24 am
ali says:
you still look hot
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March 20th, 2008 at 12:26 pm
Hilly says:
I added mah picture too!
You are lovely, just the way you are ;).
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March 20th, 2008 at 12:35 pm
Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah says:
My vision is getting so bad that I was afraid my picture wouldn’t even be in focus.
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March 20th, 2008 at 3:33 pm
Kathy says:
Hey, I think you look great sans makeup. I hear you on the blank stare. When I wore glasses exclusively I’d take them off for photos, and I had a lot unfocused eyes shots.
(I left the glasses on in my self- portrait truthiness picture, which is sort of cheating. Can’t see the eyebags that way.)
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March 20th, 2008 at 4:54 pm
justmylife says:
You look great. Everybody keeps saying, “I look awful, but here I am.” The ones I have seen look good. I look like a person coming off a 3 day drunk, so NO for posting my my pic.
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March 20th, 2008 at 5:43 pm
jackie says:
Oh shut up! You look great!
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March 21st, 2008 at 10:42 am
Meg says:
I think you look great! I am so impressed with your confidence!
Could you do me a favor and email me? I need to visit with you about designing my blog…thanks!!!
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March 21st, 2008 at 1:09 pm
Redneck Mommy says:
You look gorg. I would totally whistle if you walked past me. I’d even risk having you chew my arm off and pinch your arse.
I was blind as a bat in my pic too. I just trusted my Mac to take the picture and then I squinted at it and said “that’ll do.”
Smooches.
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March 21st, 2008 at 7:16 pm
gorillabuns says:
You look beautiful. I’ve yet to see anyone look bad. I think we are all way too hard on ourselves.
I say this as I will not post my pic. Because I’m older than any of you and I have a nasty case of bags and dark circles.
March 21st, 2008 at 9:53 pm
FENICLE says:
You are all BRAVE & beautiful women!
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March 21st, 2008 at 10:15 pm
Brenda says:
You are beautiful Sam.
What’s the point of this? To go without make up? May I ask honestly why is that considered brave or unheard of?
I don’t wear make up. EVER. Ok…I do on special occasions…about twice a year.
I used to wear it when I worked…I felt I totally wasted money on it since I didn’t know how to do it properly and I just felt….fake. It’s not who I am. I’m not a huge “girly girl”. I’m in the middle on that I guess.
Anyway, I never really understand the whole “hide my face” thing. Like you said..you are who you are. We were all made differently and were specially and purposefully made by God….why cover that up? Be proud of the beautiful creation you are!
not saying of course we HAVE to like everything about ourselves though.
Anyway, all my pictures (with the exception of Christmas) are all without make up (oh yeah, and the professional ones.).
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March 22nd, 2008 at 5:22 pm
Sarcastic Mom says:
Love this post, and the picture rocks!
You said miles worth here.
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March 22nd, 2008 at 11:40 pm
LD says:
I loved this post
It’s funny how you view yourself quite differently.
But, I’ve gotta tell you that whenever I see your pictures I’ve always thought of you as pretty and popular … and far cooler than me
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March 23rd, 2008 at 12:11 pm
Leslie says:
Sam, you’re beautiful! Inside and out.
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March 23rd, 2008 at 5:09 pm
samarama ding dong says:
Karen Sugarpants: Ain’t it purty? I had it up the day before, so it’s messier then usual. LOL
Jen: Aw!!!! So Sweet my Jen!
Natalie: It’s near impossible for someone to see themselves as others do. There’s always a nagging feeling about what could be different.
I think pregnancy has helped me a little since I am at that point right now where I just don’t give a damn, and I think it *may* sine through that I am not constantly fretting about weight looks and styles because dude, I’m about as big as a house! LOL
ali: You’re a great liar! :p
Hilly: Thanks Hilly! I LOVE your picture! I think yer one hot lady!
Sarah, and the Goon Squad: Luckily my camera has a brain of it’s own or it more then likely would have been out of focus… there’s a couple where I’m not in focus, but the curtain behind me is.. LOL
Kathy: Hahaha, I always laugh at the term “eyebags” I have no idea why I find that funny.
justmylife: Oh please. Everyone thinks they look like a person coming off a three day drunk!! Hell, I might have looked BETTER if I was coming off a drunk!
jackie: Thanks
Meg: I emailed you!
RNM: You’re such a tease. Who knows, maybe when you come to town I’ll let you grab my ass…
gorillabuns: Thanks!! You’re right, we are too hard on ourselves. Human nature compounded by the media makes it too easy to point out our own faults all the time!
Fenicle: Thanks!! You’re right, we are too hard on ourselves. Human nature compounded by the media makes it too easy to point out our own faults all the time!
Brenda: It was just a fun bloggy thing to do. There are many of us who, by habit wear make up all the time and to share the “real” us, behind the mask can be a big deal. Scary and risky since they never leave the house without being made up.
I, for one, now leave my house without makeup - usually only on the weekends. LOL But it used to be that I would have to be all done up - make up, hair and NO jogging pants before I’d even go buy milk!
Lame, I know, but that’s just how some people are! LOL
SarcasticMom: Thanks girlie!!
LD: Really? Pretty and Popular!? Thanks
Like I said, it’s been self esteem issues all my life that maybe have stopped me from seeing what you see! *hugs*
Leslie: Thanks Leslie! *squeeze* You are too!!!
March 24th, 2008 at 10:51 am
mamatulip says:
Dude. You are are ROCKING the morning bloodshot eyes. ROCKING!
And your skin, damn you, is gorgeous. DAMN YOU.
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