I was going to mindlessly post a meme today because I really can’t think of anything fun!, witty! or entertaining! to write about but photobucket is on the fritz and I am impatient. My mind has taken a vacation. The hamster has left the wheel.
If you’re twittering with me, you may have noticed my somewhat delirious rant at the end of yesterday (or my end of yesterday, which was about 3:30pm for everyone else that works and takes their jobs seriously *ahem*). I believe I said something along the lines of: I’m dizzy and feel sick to my stomach. I’m going home. Dear God I can’t take this anymore! This baby must be evicted soon or so help me I may need a padded room. So I may have exaggerated a little seeing as I can only twitter 140 characters.
Something came over me: I couldn’t look at my computer screen for one more second; I felt like the entire room was spinning and I had to get out of here, NOW! I sat in my car, let my hair down and closed my eyes for what felt like a half hour but was actually only like a minute, then drove to the daycare (which I don’t even know if you’d consider sitting in stop-and-go traffic at about a mile an hour driving) and got Carter. We went home, I put up the baby gate in the living room and slept on the couch as he wrecked havoc on my living room. I was in bed for the night at 7:30pm and I feel like I could have stayed there all day.
I called to see if I could bump up my prenatal visit to today, instead of tomorrow, but no go. She’s just too damn popular it seems.
IMing with a friend this morning, she mentioned how she felt bad that I was having such a difficult time with this pregnancy. And as much as I wallow in self pity and everyone has their own sense of what is bad and difficult – this isn’t bad. This is inconvenient, uncomfortable and just a pain in the ass. Difficult is bedrest, incompetent cervix, preeclampsia, infertility and difficulty carrying to term, among other things.
I just whine and bitch a lot because I am horrible at being sick. I hate sick. Sick has consumed my life since September. I have been struggling with intensifying bouts of depression accumulating with every cough that increases my incontinence, the congestion and the vomiting. Now also facing constipation from the increased iron supplements which leave me with cramping, bloating and pain!. And that pain! is even more intolerable with every cough.
Woe is me. Oh, woe is me.
But! this is not difficult.
I just have to keep telling myself that.
Soon there will be a precious little baby here (hopefully not before I finish the bedrooms and actually have a nursery set up because I’m totally freaking out about that) and there will be a whole new set of complaints: sore boobs, sore coochie, tired, crying but I mustn’t fret because along with that there will be new baby smell, cooing and a new life that I’ve helped bring into this world and need I mention an Entire! Year! Off! Work! *wOOt*
Soon there will be a baby here. OMG. Another baby.
/pep talk
Shania says:
I had somewhat the same situation with SweetieDarling. I told the doc that I wanted this baby out NOW! So he induced. A month early. Because I whined and cried. Apparently, I’m a really effective whiner and crier. Or he’s just a really ineffective doc. Course that was 18 (OMG!) years ago.
Shania’s last blog post..I feel so dirty
March 27th, 2008 at 11:55 am
justmylife says:
The new baby smell alone will make it all worth it. I like the way you are looking at it. I just whined until nobody came to visit me!heh!
justmylife’s last blog post..Hillary, Obama, and McCain……
March 27th, 2008 at 1:29 pm
Sarah the Spunky Mommy says:
Hang in there – I know you know it’s hard! I remember when I was a week overdue, everyone tried to be encouraging saying things like “they all come out eventually” and “if you stop eating ice cream the baby will get sick of waiting and come out for the good stuff”. Uh, yeah… BTW, you have a great blog – thanks for entertaining me!
March 27th, 2008 at 2:48 pm
Jennifer says:
It was just one year ago (almost exactly) that I felt the exact same way. I just had to keep reminding myself that it really wasn’t THAT bad.
Jennifer’s last blog post..What IS the Difference between 24 Mos and 2T
March 27th, 2008 at 4:22 pm
Pam says:
O.M.G. SAM! A whole YEAR off? Very nice! So, how about some pictures of the nursery??? (joking of course).
By average standards, you have had one wicked rough pregnancy. There are always comparisons you can make which would make your pregnancy seem less horrid but dude! you’ve been fantastic about everything you’ve been through. (but yeah, so worth it)
Pam’s last blog post..Have You Seen My Aunt?
March 27th, 2008 at 8:07 pm
discountchica says:
A WHOLE YEAR????!!!! I need to move to Canada. 6 weeks is joke
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March 27th, 2008 at 9:01 pm
Devilish Southern Belle says:
Yay for a new & improved outlook! I am okay with sick, but the longer it lasts, the worse I get with depression, too. Not funny!
Devilish Southern Belle’s last blog post..Need a bit of help here….
March 28th, 2008 at 12:32 am
Leslie says:
Honestly, I can totally relate. I’ve been reading your Twitters and saying, “Amen, Sister!” This pregnancy is so uncomfortable. But, in the grand scheme of things, that’s it. Just uncomfortable. I’m not having the kind of true problems you mentioned – the stuff that makes you fear for the health and safety of your baby and you. I’ve just been so damn uncomfortable and unable to find relief. I know that once the baby is here, it won’t seem so bad. But right now it feels yucky.
Leslie’s last blog post..Mamaaaaa! Oooooo.*
March 29th, 2008 at 11:55 am
samarama ding dong says:
Shania: Really? The doctor induced you early because you were uncomfortable. I don’t know that I could PAY mine enough to do that… she has four boys (which includes a set of twins) I don’t think she’d take enough pity on me. LOL
justmylife: Yeah, I think people are getting sick of it… I mean, look at the number of comments over the past two days! LMAO!
Sarah: Some people have begun to tell me “Oh, not much longer!” and “The baby will be out in no time!” I pray I don’t go late otherwise they may die. LOL
Jennifer: It’s REALLY hard to remember how bad it’s NOT… lol… and with only 7 weeks left I’m starting to feel a little guilty that I haven’t enjoyed it more.
Pam: You don’t know how much that really means to me because I’ve felt like a wet blanket this entire time. Like I’ve done nothing but bitch and seem totally ungrateful and I’m really not!! LOL
Nursery pics later. Hahaha
Discount Chica: Yeah, it’s a complete joke. At six weeks some people still can’t even SIT!!
Belle: Thanks!! I’ve been feeling a lot better about my new outlook too! Just feel bad that it’s taken so long to get to this point.
Leslie: Relief is on the way sista! We’re almost there!!!
March 31st, 2008 at 10:07 am