June 1st, 2008
I am so in love with all my boys. So much so I can’t stop crying.
Mike has been so very unbelievably supportive and wonderful at keeping Carter occupied and helping me as much as he can with everything. He’s truly stepped up to the plate these last couple days and I think I am in love with him more then ever. I couldn’t have asked for a better husband and father to my kids.
But, that could just be the hormones talking. (Though, probably not.)
Fuck hormones.
I’ve been crying for about the last - oh, 3 hours and just can’t stop. Every time Carter calls for me or I look at any of them I start crying again. I am a crier by nature, but this is fuckin’ ridiculous. I think I’ve shed enough tears to turn a desert into a rain forest in the last two days.
I remember crying when I had Carter, but never like this. I remember feeling overwhelmed and uncertain, but this time it all feels so different. Carter has always been my guy and now he has to share me: he’s been so great and helpful, not showing one ounce of jealousy towards Hudson’s arrival, but I can’t help feel that I’m slowly removing myself and missing out - and it’s only been FOUR DAYS. I can’t even begin to imagine what a single parent must feel like because this is almost torturous.
All I know for sure is that hormones are a bitch and I can’t wait to be ‘normal’ again.
And maybe grow another set of arms - like Stitch.
I kinda look like Stitch too - minus the guns and superhero-esque-ness.
Sorry I’m just stopping by, but wanted to say congrats on the new little one! The hormones are a bitch, but it should pass quickly. ((HUGS))
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June 1st, 2008 at 9:33 am
Congratulations
Hudson and Carter are such great times!
I’m sure you’ll figure out how to balance it all over time
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June 1st, 2008 at 9:47 am
Congrats. I was the same way after my 2nd was born, it will be better in a few days.
June 1st, 2008 at 9:50 am
Oh, honey. It totally is hormones. Those weepy days are not fun. Take care of yourself and I’m sure you’ll be out of this funk soon.
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June 1st, 2008 at 11:38 am
Congrats! I’ve been away too long - I had no idea that you were even expecting! I just wanted to stop by and leave my new URL. There’s not much there now, but I’ll be updating soon. I missed blogging too much to stay away. Talk to you soon!
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June 1st, 2008 at 5:57 pm
oh ((you))
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June 1st, 2008 at 7:58 pm
Oh Sam, it’s not the hormones! It’s the faces of your amazingly handsome, darling, adorable, beautiful, miraculous boys!! (mike included!).
I cried a river with #2 of 3, it’s a big thing, this going from 1 to 2. Now when #3 of 3 was born, eh, we didn’t even skip a beat. You have SO much to be happy and feel blessed about!!!
Hudson ( LOVE LOVE LOVE the name; not trendy but not plain, strong and befitting) is SO freaking cute!! You done good girl!! really good.
Congrats!! A housefull of men. Really, there’s nothing any better.
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June 1st, 2008 at 8:02 pm
Aw, congratulations! Those boys are just too precious. You hang in there, it will get better. You’ll find a groove, I promise. It just takes time.
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June 1st, 2008 at 8:28 pm
Oh, I remember the tears, I cried because no one came to see me, just the babies! New and old boys, but not me *pout*.
It gets better and before you know it you will wonder why you thought it was hard. Rest and kiss both those beautiful boys and know that you did great! Again congratulations and I love the name.
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June 2nd, 2008 at 11:07 am
i know all about the crying. when my second son was born, my first was only 13 months old. it was hard not to give him the attention he was used to. and the whole thing was overwhelming. i was like “shit, i’ve got two kids to take care of!”, and “man, look at my two beautiful boys…how did i deserve to be so lucky?”.
it’s a lot to absorb, especially at the same time as settling in (if you ever do!) to newborn mode, getting the breastfeeding going, lack of sleep, etc.
hang in there! and congrats again!
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June 2nd, 2008 at 11:44 am
hormones. 100%
June 2nd, 2008 at 12:51 pm
hmmm… I’m sure I commented here yesterday but it’s gone…! I must be losing my mind!
Hormones are yuk but the babies are totally worth it
x
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June 2nd, 2008 at 3:42 pm
Sammy J…you’re a wonderful mom! As you said..it’s only been FOUR days…take it easy…you will be back to “normal” in no time. If you have to cry, cry. Cry to me if you have to…even at 2am (heck, I’m awake anyway).
Be strong…it WILL pass and just think of your sweet men (and one sour one HEHE) that make up your family. You’re one lucky chick and I love you with alllll my heart!
I’m just a call away…remember that.
June 2nd, 2008 at 5:20 pm
Yeah, sounds like hormones. But, keep crying it out. It’s not a bad thing. You need the release. It’s stressful being pregnant and then having a new baby in your life, all the responsibility — CRY IT OUT. It’s good for you.
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June 2nd, 2008 at 5:54 pm
I understand the crying…did a lot of that when my second was born. Hang in there…the first few months are always the hardest. It does get better and easier! Your boys are incredible and beautiful!!
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June 3rd, 2008 at 8:43 am
Stitch has some creepy ass little finger nails.
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June 3rd, 2008 at 11:55 am
I’ll never forget the day (about five years and five months ago) when I was headed out to the driveway to enjoy an unseasonably warm day with my firstborn and some sidewalk chalk. Then his little brother, about a six weeks old at the time, started squawking and I was obliged to sit down and and resume milk wagon status while daddy went out to partake of the sidewalk chalk in my stead. My husband stepped back in the house momentarily and witnessed major crocodile tears rolling down my cheeks. “Oh babe, what’s wrong?” he asked. To which I whine/replied “I WANTED TO DO SIDEWALK CHALK.”
I feel you, hon. It will get better.
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June 4th, 2008 at 1:30 pm