June 10th, 2008
I keep staring at this blank screen wondering what to type. I try and think of stories to tell or things to share and I just can’t get the creative juices flowing enough to put something together.
I crave quiet me time. I crave time to sit and write, to read, an adult conversation accompanied by some wine. Something. I’m so used to having my nights to myself that I’ve forgotten what it’s like to be at some little being’s beckon call 24-7. I nurse Hudson and then by 9pm he’s asleep and I head off to bed to I can be ready to awake for the next feeding. I have no time that’s dedicated to me and it’s another hard part of the transition.
It’s a strange feeling being busy and needed all the time, yet feeling alone.
When Mike comes home from work he plays with Carter and makes dinner (since Hudson’s feeding usually falls during the time I would prep dinner), then after bath and bed Mike heads straight to the computer to play World of Warcraft (speaking of WOW - if you know anything about it, you HAVE to check out this post by Mommy Needs Coffee: funniest thing ever!). Granted the man deserves to have his time to wind down from his day at work and coming home to help with the kids, but I need his time too!! We were so close and doing everything together right after Hudson’s birth, and now that I’m back to ‘normal’ things have settled into their normal ‘routine’ of us doing our own things.
I miss us time.
I miss solitary me time and I miss together-husband-and-wife time.
I can’t have it all.
But I should.
I wanna eat my cake dammit.
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Carter is fully potty trained at school. He even wears big boy underpants (with McQueen on them) and has no accidents. When he comes home, it’s a different story. He will pee and poop in those underpants and pull ups. Even if I try a timer and have him scheduled, like they do at school, he will unload whenever he sees fit - no warning, no request for the toilet - nothing. SO frustrating!! If I’m lucky I may catch him when he has to go and we’ll get a pee, but they are few and far between.
No sticker or treats in the world can convince him that he has to use the toilet at home too.
Bugger’s testing me. And winning.
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Gratuitous baby toes:
Squee!! I LOVE baby toes!
(more pictures on Flickr!)
I wonder how many times you can read the comment “this too shall pass” without wanting to smack someone….
MAN I hope I’m under that mark.
On another note - what kind of potty is he going in at school? Is it smaller than the one you have at home?
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June 10th, 2008 at 12:09 pm
I was going to say it, but I fear if Miss Britt is just under I would be just over, so…..
Good Luck!!!!
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June 10th, 2008 at 3:38 pm
You know what? I crave me time too! I think that’s why when my son is in bed and my husband is getting ready for bed I am downstairs just chilling reading blogs and surfing the net. And I think I may crave it more after my next child is born (funnily in the same month my son will turn 2!). However you do it let me know so I know what to do b/c I’m starting to get very scared about two very young children! I want this but I’m still scared.
June 10th, 2008 at 9:04 pm
The TOES! Nom nom nom.
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June 10th, 2008 at 11:19 pm
Oh Sammy Sue,
I feel your pain dear.
Damnit…I will finish this post later…baby needs me…ugh
love you
June 11th, 2008 at 7:28 am
I totally understand about the me time. One reason I’m holding off having a third. I selfishly don’t want to lose my “me” time.
As for the potty training thing….I know you aren’t supposed to do this, but have you thought about consequences for going in his underwear? I had to do that with Ryan. He knew exactly what he was doing….it was a battle of wills. And darn it, I wasn’t about to let my 4 yr old win! I took away his favorite toys every time he went in his pants, gave time outs, even a luke warm shower. Finally, after 3 days, he finally was going on the toilet!
Carter seems to understand what’s expected of him. Just a thought. Not that I endorse it…but there comes a point where you just can’t deal with it anymore. Good luck in whatever you choose!
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June 11th, 2008 at 8:20 am
Carter is probably peeing and pooping in his pants at home because of the baby. It’s just his way of getting more time from you. He knows you’ll clean him up and to him that’s more time for him and less with the new baby. So totally normal…he’ll adjust.
Being home with the kids 24/7 is tough. Mine are older; 10, 5, 4 and I still feel lonely sometimes. Honestly, I sometimes get pissed at Mr. Schmitty the minute he walks in the house. He didn’t do anything, but if I’ve had a rough day I really resent that he was just out, on his own, for 10 hours straight with nobody pulling him in a million directions. I’m a bitch that way.
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June 12th, 2008 at 10:37 am
Awesome Pics! Keep up the good work Momma!
Yvie
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June 14th, 2008 at 12:27 am