I’ve now taken on all the sickness that’s been flying around my humble abode. The children are better, Mike is better and I am falling apart at the seams. Fitting isn’t it? Mom takes care of everyone then as a reward she gets the illness from HELL.
My throat is on fire.
I can only calm it by way of overdosing on Benylin and Advil which leaves me in a dazed fog.
The same dazed fog I am in at this very moment while I sit here. At work. Not working. (shhhhh… don’t tell my boss)
I’ve been having a hard time dealing with my transition back to the office. I feel underutilized, redundant and most of all – sad. I received a very passive aggressive email from my boss the other day. His frustration with my sick kids and time off very evident. I feel bad that after eight years of being everywhere doing everything that I’ve had a hard time and that’s the first thing that’s noticed. All my hard work and effort rarely received any acknowledgment and now that I’ve struggled and haven’t performed to par something is said. Not – is everything alright? How can we help? But instead – you’re dropping the ball and I’m picking up your mess.
It’s a really hard pill to swallow.
I like my boss and consider him a friend, so it’s been kinda painful to be at the receiving end of this passive aggressive-ness.
And… that’s enough about work.
So ya. High.
Benylin cough syrup, Advil to numb the pain of swallowing and I think I even took an anti-depressant this morning.
FUN!
I could definitely sleep at my desk this very moment. I could place my head on this stupid laptop and snooze. But I KNOW that my snoring would give me away, and I could only imagine the emails that would result of my sleeping (And blogging. Dammit.) while at work.
Maybe underneath the desk? Muffle the snoring by barricading myself behind the garbage and recycling bin?
The bathroom. Ya. That’s a better place. Turn on the fan and lock the door. I’d be golden.
Okay, now I gotta go pee.
Laural says:
I know how much going back to work sucks and how hard it is to get back into things – especially when you feel like crap.
I promise – it gets better!
I felt the same way when I went back – I’d been super-busy before I was on mat leave, they somehow survived without me, and then I came back to very little work.
But, the workload DID pick up (after I burst into tears in my boss’ office. But you know, it happens).
Hang in there
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June 2nd, 2009 at 10:31 am
Angie [A Whole Lot of Nothing] says:
I wanna snuggle you and make it all better.
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June 2nd, 2009 at 10:32 am
punkinmama says:
Sorry you’re having such a rough time! Hope you get to feeling better soon!
And tell that boss of yours to back off! (Yeah, if only…)
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June 2nd, 2009 at 11:11 am
Vic says:
Damn! This whole work lark isn’t easy. Is there anyway Mike could help more if one of the kids gets sick?
Hope you’re feeling better soon. x
June 2nd, 2009 at 11:23 am
ali says:
going back to work is tough at the best of times…but your whole family being plagued at the same time….TOTALLY SUCKS. i’m so sorry, Sam. things will get better. they will.
hugs.
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June 2nd, 2009 at 1:57 pm
Patty says:
Man that totally sucks that you are getting crap from the bossman! I hope you are feeling better soon, if you lay your head just right you may not snore? Worth a try!
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June 2nd, 2009 at 5:00 pm
always home and uncool says:
You need the George Costanza under desk bed.
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June 3rd, 2009 at 8:54 am
OMG LOL! I NEED a Costanza bed! NEEEEEED.
June 3rd, 2009 at 1:08 am
Kellee says:
I will freely admit that I have fallen asleep at work before. I went in the bathroom to actually use the bathroom, and ended up falling asleep for like 30 minutes on the floor. You know you’re exhausted when you’re willing to lay down on a bathroom floor. LOL
As for your boss, that is particularly sad. It seems like there is no loyalty left in the world. No, “You’ve worked hard for us for a long time, we need to help you a little bit now.” Very disappointing.
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June 3rd, 2009 at 8:54 am
MG @ MommyGeekology.com says:
Working + Motherhood = really, really, really hard and guilt-ridden. I’m sorry.
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June 3rd, 2009 at 12:09 pm
Devilish Southern Belle says:
Sorry! Hope you feel better soon. Isn’t that how it goes? And if you’re lucky, your husband *doesn’t* act like you’re insane if you want him to take care of you.
I don’t know how you’re doing it all!
June 12th, 2009 at 11:42 am
Mutley says:
To tell you the truth i was just looking around to see if Benylin chest and cough. could get you high. Lol coming from me it probably sounds bad but on the back it says “talk to your doctor before using if…… or taking a drug for depression”. Just watch out for yourself could be dangerous to mix.
January 3rd, 2010 at 10:33 pm