so I won’t tell you that I feel better. I won’t say that some days are still crappy and others I feel like I’m 110% human again.

I won’t mention anything about not having to throw up or the fact that I may have even had dinner three consecutive nights.

I wouldn’t want to ruin the off chance that morning sickness is slowly moving out of town by telling you that I cleaned my kitchen from top to bottom, even scrubbing the finger prints off the kitchen chairs.

Nope. Not me.

I’d never be able to live with myself had I mentioned all that and found myself praying to The Porcelain God once again this evening.

I’m just saying.

By the way, this US Turkey Holiday? Seriously why don’t y’all just take the entire week off? Four day weekends? Pftttt.

And I wanted to apologize once again for being such a horrible blog citizen these past oh, I dunno, 14 weeks. I haven’t been commenting at all nor paying much attention to comments here. I really enjoyed responding to all your comments through email and on the site, so I WILL get back to it soon. Swear. And my commenting on your site? Will start again SOON! Just know that I am reading!

Just waiting for that unmentionable sickness to take a hint and realize it’s not welcome here.

One of the more fantastic! things about daycare is the sick children: mine being one of them. Carter’s had this horribly wretched cough for a couple weeks now, but it’s not strong enough to be croup, just super duper annoying and only made awesomer by the fact that he’s shared it with moi.

I came home sick yesterday with this stupid chest burning cough that created a miserable headache causing my concentration to be solely on whether or not the next cough would make me gag bad enough that I would hurl all over my desk.

A joy of pregnancy is that I’m limited to using Halls, Tums or Tylenol for sickness remedies so I wasn’t able enjoy the drug induced coma of which only Ny-Quil, Advil and Benylin are capable of. Sleep was my only savior from the burning and gaging. But once bedtime came around, I wasn’t tired anymore but just tossed and turned. And coughed.

My throat is so raw I have a fuckin’ headache from hell, and I’m now trying to do work from home.

This damn computer screen is making my head worse and to top it all off? The doors on my car were all iced shut this morning. Completely shut. Like I thought I hadn’t unlocked them and was just pulling on a locked car door.

At least that’s what I must have looked like to my neighbours.

It’s amazing what a little caffeine can do for a person. A pop, some french fries and I’m feeling like a million bucks.

Pop is one thing that I’ve opted not to cut out this pregnancy. I’ve cut it back, but I have no intention of stopping completely. It’s the only thing that’s been keeping me going lately. Without it I’m a weepy self conscious mess like I was this morning. I was even at the point of contemplating shutting this blog down. Don’t ask why, cuz I’m not really sure. I do Cah-razy things without a good dose of caffeine.

P.S. I can’t spell caffeine without the spell checker. I heart spell checker.

As you can tell, I did a little re-vamp here (AGAIN) and am now using a template created by one of my favourite bloggers, Kerflop. But note there is no header, confusing? Just a nice simple stripe across the top. Did you know still it was me? I’ll create a simple banner tonight sometime over the next 6 to 8 weeks couple days, but for now, I’m quite content with this theme.

The only thing that I am having a hard time with and getting really frustrated about is the speed of this site. I’ve tried everything and even mentioned the speed to my host who were less then helpful to give me any ideas as to what I could do. Since they say it’s not their fault, they wash their hands of the situation entirely. Don’t think that I don’t notice you wonderful people who seems to leave in less then one second. I see Sitemeter and Sitemeter sees all of you.

I promise I’ll get back to real writing soon.

As long as you promise to comment again soon.

I’m getting a slight complex again. *pout*

I think I need another pop. I love you Coke Zero.

** EDITED TO ADD: I think I may have spammed Every. Single. Person. in my gmail account with a StumbleUpon link. I am so freakin’ sorry. I hate shit like that and to think that I just did it to y’all really sucks.

I am definitely having another pop now.

I am cold, super tired and my brain is mush.

Yesterday we sat in our cramped boardroom for 9.5 hours working on our company’s Strategic Planning for the coming year. We do this every year over a two day period giving every employee (all 12 of us) the opportunity to share our grievances and what we’d like to see happen throughout the next calendar year. It’s truly a great session, but so painful sitting there for 2 solid days (a Friday and Saturday no less) going through this past year’s financials, goals, achievements, and THEN the changes that we’d like to see in place for the upcoming.

This year we crammed it all into one Thursday.

I think my brain oozed out of my left ear at one point.

I have no ability to put together a coherent sentence or carry on a conversation. I am just completely bushed, overwhelmed and groggy.

After our session, we had a group dinner. I made it through without barfing - since my biggest fear all day was: How the Hell am I Going to Eat Dinner with all These People I Work with and Keep it Down?!

I didn’t get home until 10:30pm and I’m back at my desk, bright and early at 7:30 (that is of course if the boss is reading this…for everyone else, I was here about a half hour later).

I am seriously contemplating dropping out of NaBloPoMo. I just don’t know if I have it in me anymore; I’ve made it half way through and feel like quitting now. I feel forced to write and panicked if I don’t have time. It’s not entirely enjoyable for me at this point.

Could be the fact that I am about ready to pass out right now at this here desk.

I feel Hormonal and CrazyBitch-like today as well, surely to be blamed on the lack of sleep.

I’ve received a couple of rewards and been tagged for some memes, which I’m going to use to my advantage this weekend.

I am soooooo stinkin’ far behind on designs I really wouldn’t be surprised if clients began asking for their money back. I’m really trying Client People. I do love you, and I haven’t forgotten about you!!

UPDATE: I’ve decided to go on hiatus from designing until the New Year. The clients that I am currently working with WILL have new designs ASAP, but as for new stuff, I just don’t have it in me at the moment and it’s not fair to expect that people are OK with these huge delays I’ve been encountering with designs over the past month three months. It brings tears to my eyes because I never wanted to do this, but I just have to let some things go at the moment.

See, HORMONAL!

If you’re looking for some help from other great designers (at risk of losing the small client base I’ve developed *wink*) drop me an email and I will do my best to hook you up with some fabulous talent!