Once again, I can’t thank you enough. Your kind words over the past week (or so) have been really heartwarming. I never thought that blogging would bring such wonderful people into my life. I am truly grateful for each and every one of you.

The only thing that’s really keeping me from writing at the moment is work and my damn desktop. I’m so busy at work lately, and blogging at home has become virtually impossible (even though I’m trying right now while sitting on a HUGE pillow) since: a) Mike CONSTANTLY hogs the computer playing World of Warcraft and b) Dude, I got a fuckin’ wood chair to sit on. Normally it’s not so bad, but lately, I just can’t handle it and find myself in pain even just looking at the damn chair.

I am really missing writing regularly. Though it’s nothing articulate or educational, it clears my mind and helps me relax a little. I can bitch and moan whine share my feelings that I would otherwise keep bottled up and I feel better. That’s what counts.

So. I really need a laptop (yes, still griping about that one) or a better chair.

I think I have to get the laptop, no?

Things are better around home lately. Mike’s mood swings and all around shitty behaviour have curbed a bit lot, making him far more tolerable. Carter’s not being a shit and I just seem to be copping a little better at the moment, though I sleep a lot and and really uncomfortable already. I don’t know how I’m going to survive the next 3 months if I’m THIS uncomfortable already. Seriously, there’s going to be A. Lot. of bitching around here.

Belly is BIG. Had my 20 week ultrasound a month late. Found out the sex, and no. I’m not sharing.

I have ultrasound images to share too, but they have to wait. I’m too damn lazy to go out to the car in this shitty storm for them. You can wait another day or two - whenever I decide to post again.

Until then lovelies. Don’t forget about me!

God willing, I may actually have some ambition time to post more often.

Sorry for the sporadic posting and nothing of interest lately. I am really just not feeling it lately; in fact, I’m not feeling much.

Winter blues combined with seemingly endless illness has brought my depression on - full strength. I have no ambition to do anything, I find myself spending most of my time lazing on the couch or sleeping. I feel weighted down, like I’m just a burden on everyone.

Mike and I have been constantly bickering and arguing over the simplest things and it’s tiring - and trying. I can’t handle being called a nag and a bitch all. the. time. Even when - what I think - is a small task is requested of him, he loses his shit saying that I’m constantly nagging and never shut up. Maybe he’s right and I just don’t see it. I mean, I don’t think I’m asking too much of someone to bring the cars back in the driveway after he shovels instead of leaving them in the road. Or even a simple question like, “Did you change Carter’s bum after nap” has him exploding at me like I’m treating him like a child.

Yes, we’re both in rough places right now with him trying to quit smoking and me sick and pregnant, but it’s far more trying when we’re at each other like this all the time.

I’m seriously ready to pack my shit and leave for the next 4 months. I don’t know that I can continue to live like this. I want a marriage left once everything’s all said and done. I want a family for my children - not what we have at this moment.

So, that’s where I am. To save you the woe is me posts and, for me, the realization that everyone really has their own shit to deal with, my problems meaning very little … I’ll be here and there but for now, mostly, there.

Random. That’s what today is. All topics that really aren’t worthy of a dedicated post and well, I just have nothing else. I had planned to subject you to Belinda’s dare but I didn’t get showered on Saturday and I wore PJ’s all day Sunday was really busy this weekend.

So, hold on tight cuz this bad boy is all over the map.

Bullet style!

• We have been a little more conscious of our spending, though much hasn’t changed as of yet. Got a new budgeting software to transfer existing online banking information over rather then hoping I got it all manually. Dare I say it’s actually FUN! to see the graphs and charts of our spending habits. Now all I have to do is transfer our budget information over and I’m all set. I think I may actually like this tracking money thing. (Does that make me nerdy?)
• Mike is - as far as I know, since I don’t go to work with him - 16 days smoke free. He hasn’t tried to escape outside for some odd chore to be done and he hasn’t smelled like smoke at all. I really, really hope this is it this time. I am beaming with joy that he’s actually succeeding, but it’s so hard to get my hopes up because he’s lied about it before.
• I’m contemplating starting up designing again. I really miss it and want to get back at it. There have been a few requests from people wanting to know when I’m going to start again, so I think it’s going to be sooner then later. But! I have to fight Mike for the computer now since he’s taken over with his latest addiction. Plus, I think I am in dire need of time to sit down and work on my own design. There is so much I want to change, but finding the time has been difficult since I never have a chance to get on my damn computer.
• Due to the conflict mentioned above, Mike thinks it time to put some money aside for a new laptop for me, including designing programs - bought from a STORE!
• I have a new job, within my job, that started yesterday (hence no post). I have to pretty much follow around a senior staff member and absorb all the information he has in his brain because (I haven’t been told officially, I just think) he’s close to retirement. He’s pretty much a wealth of knowledge that needs to be tapped prior to it all being gone with him when he leaves. So until I start my maternity leave in September, I am his shadow. (The perk: I get to boss people around - including senior engineers - to make sure they are completing their project budgets and following them throughout construction. I’m really looking forward to the new challenge (and kinda the bossing around too).
• Oh, and I wonder something - this domain is due for renewal in 2 weeks. I want to transfer the registration from it’s current location to where I have my hosting, but they charge a fee. Should I wait for it to expire and then buy it again (hoping that someone doesn’t scoop it from me) or do I suck it up and pay twice. Anyone with prior experience with domain transfer, please shed some light.

I think that’s it for now.

So look for Temptation Designs! to be opening up shop again real soon! So I can work on making my budget look prettier and more back then red. M’kay?

If you’ve been following my Tweets this morning you’d see that I’ve been freaking over the loss of my 2GB flash drive. I admit that I haven’t been entirely careful with it considering it holds a bunch of valuable information for my work’s new websites - yes, WEBSITES. Stupid me hadn’t backed it up to a computer, just kept everything on the flash drive. The flash drive that has been MIA over the past week I’ve been avoiding my boss’ requests for visual updates. I may have even used the excuse that my toddler hid it on me because what good are children if you can’t implicate them for missing items. But being that it’s a new week and *should* of had the opportunity to find it over th weekend, I can no longer avoid his requests. Hence me - freaking the shit out.

Blurred by despair, I agreed giving a blow job should Mike be able to locate the flash drive (since he’s home for the day), and won’t you know, the bugger found the damn thing in less that 15 minutes.

Shit.

I don’t know that I can use the syphilis line again.

Got any ideas to get me out of this one?

Or do I just admit defeat and take on for the team?

[Changing topic - NOW]

I now LOVE San Pellegrino and even Perrier now too.

The reason I’m sharing is because I took pictures of the bottles that I really like. And how else can I prove to you that I am insane but blog about head and soda water at the same time?

See:

Nice, right?

Still fun?

Yeah, it’s a bottle of fuckin’ water you loon.

Not to mention, a couple of Criss Angel’s motorcycles:

He was away for Christmas holidays or avoiding The Crazy Canadian Stalker while we were there, but I did get to see his store, production office for Mindfreak, as well as some of his bikes and cars.

Not to mention, lose my bag full of lens and camera gear near his store!

That sucked.

But! Thanks to some great person, it was dropped off at Luxor security and I got it ALL back.

I like to think that Criss was looking out for me.

[blank stare]

Mike thinks I shouldn’t put off the fitting for my straight jacket any longer.

Quit nodding. I thought we were friends!